my kids are sick. for real sick. finally a reason for their intense crabbiness of the past couple days. fevers. coughs. and blake had some icky sticky runny yellow goo – oozing from his ear all day today. gross. but it seems to be relieving some of the pressure that was causing his cries of pain last night.
i was tough on him last night. i knew he was sick, and thought he probably had an ear infection – but since the doctor’s office is closed for the weekend, and i had given him motrin, i thought surely it was okay for me to ask and expect him to stop crying after an hour or two of his non-stop wailing. i was tough. not that i think i was entirely wrong in expecting him to compose himself just a little bit. it’s just hard to feel good about being tough even if i know it’s for their good. it’s hard not to want to spoil them when i realize that they are going to be adults before i know it – and i wont be able to wake up and make them pancakes while they run around laughing with eachother.
not long ago i was bathing grace, shampooing her little head, and i was once again overcome with the feeling that i want to freeze my children in their current ages. i want to shampoo my babies hair forever. selfishly, i dont want them to grow up. to lose their naivety. time is just racing by, much faster than i expected it to.